It's a mixed up muddled up shook up world

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Okay

Today's lesson was about guts
Trust them more
Trust them better

Be honest
You could see it coming, right ?
From miles away
But in the end, it didn't matter
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I'm not sure I am ready for this world
Next week is gonna be tough

Blackest day of the year
Darkest week

But hey, at least my days will match my nights
That should be fun
If I can embrace my pretender's talent
Don't forget to smile
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Bloody month for me, for the third time
July is almost over,
I just hate it
But in a few hours it will be gone
Monsters' birthdays behind me
The storms are coming to clean up the sky
I have to think of something
In order to escape that cozy cell of mine
 

Thank God for this Journal, which will now keep my memories safe
I want to keep track of today, especially last night's dream

Have you ever had a sweet dream that you wish you could stay in it?
Lately I have mostly experienced my fair and usual share of bad dreams,
night terrors and succubus visits.

But last night was so luscious, I don't know what is in the air...
A few times in my life I have encoutered  this kind of night journey,
when you wake up the following morning with a smile on your face,
sometimes a blush too but mostly, a physical awareness, deep in the flesh.
What is so surreal is that I remember the light, smells, colours, shadows
and most importantly gazes and touches
I was healed, I was whispered to and I laughed...we laughed so freely,
so hard that I suspect it is the reason I woke up

My sweet dream was shattered by a shared joke,
by crystalline laughs so true that they pierced my slumber cocoon
All I have left are flashes,

a coast viewed from a small plane
a sports car u-turning in narrow parisian streets
a dinner table on the last floor
a sad landlord declaring his love in vain
a smug waiter with smoldering eyes
unrequited mushrooms in cream
a set of silver forks needed to be changed
"for dessert I have delicious soy yogurts"...(wtf)
a shoulder massage
a very funny joke about steam and a hot room